Controlling neuroses is never easy.
I am about to go on vacation and have several things to finish before then. Cleaning is a big item on the list, then packing, and so on. My neuroses tend to come out swinging in situations like this. They are getting difficult to keep under wraps.
I get really nervous about leaving the cats, especially Two-Tone. He is getting older, 14 years to be exact, and I get that paranoia about leaving, like something bad is going to happen to him while we are away. He’s healthy and fine, but I always get that pitted feeling. Some good things are that I get to see San Francisco once again and get to see my brother, in L.A., in his element. It will be a relaxing week if I can keep my mind from worrying. I’m a homebody and I freak when I have to leave my home - even for a vacation. Crazy. I know. I am fully aware of it.
I really should be doing said things instead of writing this entry, but I needed some organization time and writing things out gets other things off my brain. I haven’t been away from my home for longer than a 3-day weekend in a while. Last time we left for a long vacation, Katrina happened, but I’m staying positive this time. No. Catastrophic. Weather. This. Time.
I have a great friend from school coming to take care of the cats and check on the house. She works with animals, so I feel good about that. Can you tell I’m one of *those* cat people? Yeah, neurotic and a cat person. Surprise!
However, I am getting excited about this trip - San Francisco, Wine Country, and then L.A. It will feel good to be back on the West Coast, even for a small bit of time. Although I’m happy to be back in the South and love it, I miss the West. It’s a whole different animal out there and it oddly feels like a second home. I’m not talking about Los Angeles, but mid-California up to the Northwest. That area helped form my early adult years and it is nostalgic. I’m not necessarily a fan of L.A., but I am a fan of my brother and he lives out there, so it will be a treat to see him. It’s been too long of a while. Sometimes it takes traveling across the country to find family.
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Reading: The Bedwetter: Stories of Courage, Redemption, and Pee by Sarah Silverman
